Archive for August, 2010


Ready, Set, Let’s Go!

August 31, 2010

This is one of my favorite anime movies, from Studio Ghibli. It’s called, “My Neighbor Totoro”! And yes, this one features the characters mentioned in my previous post, the Sootballs. ;-)

It’s a story about two daughters of a professor, who move to the country, and discover the friendly forest spirits nearby. It’s also a story about facing fears and the love of a family. It’s not the most deepest story in the Studio Ghibli collection, but it is a lot of fun! And the voices of the daughters, Satsuki and Mei, are done by Dakota Fanning and her sister-Elle Fanning.

Whenever I’m feeling lonely or sad, this is THE movie that helps me cheer up. I can’t stay frowning, with the huge lovable Totoro discovering rain and umbrellas for the first time. Or Mei chasing around an forest spirit. Or the Sootballs having a meeting in the rafters. Not to mention the wonders of The Cat Bus! :-)

I happen to love a few songs of this movie’s soundtrack: “Stroll”, “Totoro Song”, and “The Wind Forest”.

I guess, I love this movie so much, because it reminds me of the simplicity and innocence of childhood. It’s easy for me to forget my real adult troubles, for a few hours, and to be a child for a moment, as I watch this film. I get excited for Mei, when she first finds the forest spirit in her backyard. And I hold my breath in anticipation, when Satsuki rides the Cat Bus! :-)



Fun With Soot!

August 30, 2010

I admit it, I seem to like the most weirdest things! In Miyazaki’s animated films, “Spirited Away” and “My Neighbor Totoro”, there are Sootballs! Sootballs are very cute dust-spirits, who love to eat star-shaped candies (as seen in the photo above), and they tend to haunt old houses. Each Sootball has it’s own personality and feelings, which adds to the child-like wonder to Miyazaki’s films.

I love these little guys (or girls?) because they are way too cute and add some excitement to the stories. The Sootballs don’t own any speaking parts in the films (if they can speak, that is…) and they have no annoying chanting songs (like elves or dwarfs…), but their presence alone and silent expressions are very entertaining. :-)

What are they, exactly? Well, Sootballs are spirits or sprites, who inhabits a house and haunts it. Much like ghosts, but more friendlier. Sootballs inhabit dark places and immediately flee in the presence of light. But once they’ve decided that the people living in the house are good people, they will leave to haunt the next house.

It’s just one of those weird things in anime, that mysterious lore which always have me asking, “Why?”. Why do the Sootballs only inhabited the houses of bad people, when they are clearly nice creatures? And how do they feel, after making friends with a family and having to leave them? Do the Sootballs have such feelings or sentiment, to start with? And what is their overall purpose in their hauntings?

I know, it’s a children’s movie and I shouldn’t think too hard on it. But, I still do. :-p




August 27, 2010

For this Music Friday, I have chosen one of my favorite U2 songs, “Ultravoilet”. Enjoy! :-)

Sometimes I feel like I don’t know
Sometimes I feel like checkin’ out
I want to get it wrong
Can’t always be strong
And love it won’t be long…

Oh sugar, don’t you cry
Oh child, wipe the tears from your eyes
You know I need you to be strong
And the day is as dark as the night is long
Feel like trash, you make me feel clean
I’m in the black, can’t see or be seen

Baby, baby, baby…light my way
(alright now)
Baby, baby, baby…light my way

You bury your treasure
Where it can’t be found
But your love is like a secret
That’s been passed around
There is a silence that comes to a house
Where no one can sleep
I guess it’s the price of love
I know it’s not cheap

(oh, come on)
Baby, baby, baby…light my way
(oh, come on)
Baby, baby, baby…light my way


Baby, baby, baby…light my way

I remember
When we could sleep on stones
Now we lie together
In whispers and moans
When I was all messed up
And I had opera in my head
Your love was a light bulb
Hanging over my bed

Baby, baby, baby…light my way
(oh, come on)
Baby, baby, baby…light my way

[repeat 4 times]

Baby, baby, baby…
Baby, baby, baby…
Baby, baby, baby…light my way



Fate, Destiny, Godsend?

August 26, 2010

I thought of this post, thanks to my best friend. I was feeling a lot frustrated one day, because I wish to have more good people in my life, just like my close friend. I had tried to branch out in other forums, being my honest self, though the people were a lot annoyed and a lot mean toward me. I felt so sad and disappointed from that result and had a little fall emotionally from it. Which means, I cried for a while about it and felt sorry for myself. :-p

My best friend was supportive, if not worried about that, stating that I shouldn’t go looking for good people… that good people are “Godsend”. But, I don’t believe in that concept, for the life of me. Though, I was very flattered that he said I was Godsend to him. Typical sweet him! ;-)

It got me thinking, though… I don’t really believe in things like “Fate”, “Godsend”, or “Destiny”… not in the traditional sense, anyways! I believe that we each create our own fates and destinies, by our own choices on the paths in life we decide to walk on. However, what one chooses to do or how a person choose to live, does seal in a set destiny for them. For example, if I decide to live a life of stealing from others, I set my destiny of future criminal actives, dangerous situations, and jail time. But if I choose a life of not harming others, of being law abiding, the outcome of me spending time in jail is very slim. And this is as far as I can believe in destiny.

I do believe that everyone sets their own course in life, due to a series of personal choices. Even the people we meet in life stems from where we choose to be in life, at any given moment, that every path has it’s own cast of characters by default. I have met my best friend, simply on the series of choices that I had made, like joining a particular forum and allowing certain people of that forum into my life. He was a friend of a “friend” and that’s how we had discovered each other. The mutual friend in question became not such a nice person in my life and caused me great pain. Still, in my choice of allowing that person a chance, I found my now best friend.

I’m not trying to discredit the beliefs of my best friend! If he believes that our meeting was that of Divine intervention, it’s his right to. And as far as ideas go, it’s a very nice and sweet one. I do like the sentiment of it… A LOT. Though, in my own scientific mind and self, I just can’t see it that way. Not that he is wrong or that I am wrong. No one can really know who is right or not, as it depends on faith alone, without any solid evidence. ;-)

But personally, I choose to believe that everything happens as a direct result of my own actions, combined with the actions of others, to place two people on the same path of meeting each other. I had originally hesitated in joining the forum. And when I did join it, I had ran across some very horrible people (fair-weathered friends, toxic friends, and emotional blackmailers alike), which caused me to want to close down my account there and leave. But I had decided to give the forum one last shot, which I gave the chance to met my best friend and two other nice women. My decision to stay one last time, before I did finally quit that site, is what put me on the path of meeting him. And this is how I sealed my own fate.

And in leaving the forum, my own choice, I could have cut out many others who were also meant to be in my life also. My actions and inactions will always be the reason for the events and people in my life, good and bad. Nothing rarely happens to me, that wasn’t a direct result of choices I’ve made or failed to make. I know this in my heart of hearts and I feel it strongly.

It’s like the scene from The Matrix:

Morpheus: Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Neo: No.
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: Because I don’t like the idea that I’m not in control of my life
Morpheus: I know EXACTLY what you mean…

But, this is my personal view on it. Everyone else is more than free to decide what they want to believe in. :-)



A Life Of Sims

August 24, 2010

For those who don’t know, The Sims is a life-simulation computer game, where you create the characters and run their lives. You can create a Sim to look like you or the opposite, single or married, fat or skinny. I have been a fan of The Sims, since the original game was released back in 2000. But the Sims have come a far ways from where I started! :-)

I am now enjoying the latest of the version, The Sims 3, and it’s expansion packs “Ambitions” and “World Adventures”. In The Sims 3, you have the ability to choose the different traits of your created Sim’s personality. For example, I’ve made my female Sim with traits of: “brave”, “artistic”, “bookworm”, “friendly”, and with one flaw of “over-emotional”. And the male Sim (husband), I’ve made him with the traits of: “brave”, “artistic”, “virtuoso” (which means he loves music a lot), “friendly”, and the flaw of “neurotic”. It makes for a very interesting couple! :-p

The wife became a great writer, who loves to write best selling books. And the husband became a great music composer for movies. I kid you not, this is in the game! As I’ve said, this game have come a long way from it’s start, where the only option for career was “newspaper reporter” and “rock star”. Now the careers are a lot more specific, with other options. And they get more specific still, with the expansion pack of “Ambitions”, where you can opt to be a fire-fighter, ghost hunter,  or sculptor, if you like.

So, my Sim-couple have pretty impressive careers, but what about the flaws? Well, the wife tends to have huge reactions to most things. When she is happy, she cheers openly. And when something is sad, she will cry… A LOT. And the husband, with the “neurotic”  flaw, tends to freak-out at random. The couple could be in a cab, heading for the movie cinema, and he will scream the whole ride there. At home, it’s quiet and my wife-Sim is on her laptop, writing her next best selling novel. Out of no where, the husband walks up behind her chair and screams, scaring both my Sim and myself! Hey, it was quiet and I had no idea that he was going to do that! :-p

Another neat thing is, with the expansion pack of “World Adventures”, my Sim-couple can travel to China, France, or Egypt for vacation. And in these very awesome environments, Sims can raid ancient tombs for treasures, shop for souvenirs, or learn songs that are commonly enjoyed by the natives. For example, my wife-Sim learned a cute song from her new friend in China. When the couple  flew home, she taught it to her husband. Now they both sing and hum it, while doing the dishes or the laundry. :-)

And yes, with “Ambitions”, Sims can do laundry! In real life, I am a laundry nut, so this feature is kind of cool to me. Sims will put their dirty clothing in a hamper (I wish people in real life was this obedient) and then there is an option to take them to the washing machine. I have both a washer and dryer in my home, which my mother had commented how state-of-the-art they looked. Yeah, baby! My Sims cheers for the machines, every time she uses it. ;-)

Another cool feature is, that Sims can visit neighbors and the environments are pretty open. For example, I can go outside to my mailbox and clearly see my neighbor’s house across from me. And if my neighbors are walking around inside their home, I can see that through their window. I swear, I’m not a peeping-tom! The neighbors should invest in blinds, is all I’m saying!

My only complaints would be, that the buildings downtown, you can’t see inside of them. So, when your Sim goes in for work or shopping, you’re locked outside and can’t see them. Also, while your Sim is driving, if there is another car in front of it, your Sim’s car will drive over it! That’s just weird, as the other car appears behind your car whole again. It would be best, if you Sim had to wait behind the other car, just like real traffic.

But, the Sims have come very far in it’s realism and programing. I can’t help but wonder what’s next for this very clever game! :-)



Hello, My Readers!

August 23, 2010

Hiyas! It’s been a while since I’ve stopped and addressed my readers (all five of them!) directly. And so, here I go. ;-)

Hello, you wonderful ladies and one dude, who likes to read my random scribblings! And… oh, yeah… thanks for reading, mom.  *blushing*

I write for me, for my own entertainment, but it’s nice when others take a interest in what I write here. So I have to give a cheer and my thanks to you ladies and one gentleman, who do take the time out of your busy day to read such nonsense that goes inside one silly girl’s mind. :-)

Now, some of you may be wondering…. “Why aren’t some of your posts about real issues?” Well, the simple truth is, I’m not always a serious person. So, from time to time (if not often), you will see a random post like this one, that’s  not serious at all. It’s the whole point of this blog (and the reason why I tore down my other personal blog), because I’d like to have fun this time around.

I am flattered, if you enjoy my more “serious” posts about political issues, religion, or on relationships. But, this blog is not meant to be a self-help book or a free therapy stop. In fact, I’m not licensed to give out a professional opinions, so it’s best to seek real therapy if you need it. And most of my rantings are just “good common sense” or knowledge that I’ve gained from my elders. I swear to you, I am no Guru or have sacred knowledge about life or world issues beyond any other average Joe (or Jane) out there.

So, the short answer is… my posts change with my moods. Sometimes I’m serious, sometimes I’m pissed, and sometimes I’m just silly. :-)

Thanks for reading!



Waking Up Beside You

August 20, 2010

This is one of my favorites from the band, Stabbing Westward. It’s “love angst” at it’s best. Enjoy! :-)

I’ve been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world
Forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you’d never stay

So I memorized the color of your eyes as I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined as I drifted off beside you

I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you

At night I cling to you, I’m so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I’ll wake and find you gone
But you promised that you’d not abandon me
And kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day

But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet,
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you

I’ve been so alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts
To wake up so alone

But I memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight
Filled the room and played upon your body

I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you